Tuesday, October 18, 2011

"Hi, Its me, God. SURPRISE!"

99.9% - what does that mean?  It means its pretty sure, but there's still that itty bitty chance.  That sliver of a chance gave us the surprise of a lifetime.

I've been absent from the blogging world for a while because I have felt horrible.  It has taken everything I had to keep myself & the kids clean & fed, and well, that was about my days.  I was so exhausted from the moment my feet hit the floor in the morning throughout the entire day.  I had heard about a woman's thyroid being messed up after birth.  I was tired of being tired and was planning to head to the doctor the next day to get things checked out.  That night, I was hit with food poisoning or a stomach virus.  Brandon was sick, too.  It was horrible.  I haven't felt so bad in a long time.  The next day, Brandon was back 100%, but I wasn't.  The next day... still sick.  And the next.  And the next.  And the next.  I didn't see an end in sight.

Several days later as I was in tears from being so miserable, I was talking to Brandon about all the symptoms that was wrong with me.  Exhaustion.. check!  Nausea.. check!  Aches & pains.. check!  Wait, I've experienced this before.  Now when was it?!  Oh my, it can't be.  It just can't be.

A few tests later & yep, you guessed it.. we're expecting.

Now I had never had a surprise pregnancy before.  We tried & tried for Olivia.  We tried & tried for Jameson.  We knew we would never be that couple that just on a whim, takes a test & BAM.  Never say never!  Brandon was done with kids.  I was done for a good 4 or 5 years & then we would revisit the subject.  All the cards were in our favor.  Protection, breastfeeding, and a medical condition after Jameson that is said to cause difficulties conceiving.  Add all that up & you still get a positive result, are you crazy!

To say the least, we were shocked.  Didn't know what to say, didn't know what to do.  We just knew that God must have thought this little baby needed us and needed us now.  Or more than likely, we needed it.

At 7 weeks, I went to the doctor to confirm.  At 8 weeks, we had our first ultrasound.  One baby, strong heartbeat, & as it turns out it shows we're not 8 weeks, we're 11 weeks.  Hallelujah.  This pregnancy has been the pits so far.  You take my sickness from my first two pregnancies, add them up, multiply it by 10, & its been worse than that.  I swear I think I've met death a time or two.  So I'm holding out hope that since I'm nearing the end of trimester uno, I'm nearing the end of death (I'm serious, that's the only adjective I can use to describe it).  Thank my sweet baby Jesus for my dear hubby.  He works like crazy & spends every second of free time doing everything for our kids & doing everything for our house.  He's been pretty amazing & has stepped up beyond expectations.

As soon as we found out we were pregnant, our first thought was "it could be another April baby."  When we were trying for Jameson, I once said I would rather not have another April baby since Olivia's birthday is in April.  Olivia's birthday is April 10th, Jameson's is April 15th.  (Don't tell God your plans, he'll laugh).  So this time around it turns out we're due May 4th.  That means if this baby comes just a few days earlier, all 3 of our kiddos will be April babies (obviously I'm only fertile one time a year. hahaha).  Should prove to be interesting. :)

Alright, this is about all the time I have before sickness strikes again.  I hope you all are enjoying the story of our lives because every day proves to be interesting around here.  :)

Happy Tuesday, folks!

Monday, October 17, 2011

Cardboard Testimonies

I'm BAAAAAAACK!!

I originally had another blog in my mind for tonight (its a jaw-dropper, too), but had this on my heart too much not to write about it.

Today was such a beautiful October day, not too hot,  not too cold.  The sun was out & the light breeze that blew the smell of fall around.  Fall is by far my favorite season and it reminds me why I never want to leave these mountains.

Anyway, this morning at church was one of the greatest blessings I've ever received.  The singing, the message, everything was just perfect.  God really tugged my heart on this one & my hormonal imbalance made the tears flow uncontrollably.  You know those days when you leave church & know God was there, the real prize in the cereal box is the mornings when you leave & you "feel" God was there.

Today's message was about how we are Overcomers, and how as christians we need to be transparent.  That we've been through trials in our life & how God has brought us through them all.  Our church created a video of cardboard testimonies (youtube it, you won't be disappointed).  You can see Mt. Olive's cardboard testimonies here.  You sit beside these people each Sunday & you small talk & chat about the usual, but sometimes you never really know people's trials & what God has brought them through.  Something like this shows that christians don't live a perfect life, they just serve a perfect God.

I thought about participating, but didn't know what I would say.  My little family has been fairly lucky to not be stricken with any major health crisis, we've been blessed with wonderful & healthy babies, we have more than we would ever need in this life.  What would I say in comparison to what other people have went through.  Watching today I realized it wasn't about what I've went through in "comparison," its what I've went through & been blessed to survive it, to tell it, to live it.  God has blessed me beyond measure & I should shout it out to the world how I've been down & he's brought us through better than ever.

So here are a few of my cardboard testimonies (although probably too long to put on a piece of cardboard):

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I was diagnosed with Spinal Menegitis at 6 months old & wasn't suppose to survive the ambulance ride to the hospital doors.  If I did survive, I would probably never walk, talk & learn on a "normal" level.......

24 years later, I have an Advance High School Diploma, a B.A. in Elementary Education, & walk & talk just fine.

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My husband was once robbed at gunpoint....

He escaped unharmed & still here to tell about it.

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When pregnant with my second child, I was told he was not surviving inside the womb & to prepare for the unexpected....

Jameson is 6 months old & was born healthy & happy.

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God has done so much for us, there's not enough words or tears to describe it.  He is truly an awesome God to serve & I pray I will serve him (& start listening more when he tugs at my heart) for as long as I stand on this Earth.  I want to live my life for Jesus, I want my children to see what a mighty God we serve through me, & in return I hope they live their life for Jesus as well.

Many Blessings sent to you & yours!

Friday, September 16, 2011

i *need* it

September is passing by so fast.  We're over halfway through with it.  Time we'll never get back.  Where has it gone to?  What have I been doing?  Time seems to go so fast these days, and I look around & can't figure out where it all went.

I'm always so delayed in writing about our life.  I like to find time to reminisce about the exciting events & add pictures where I can.  But with 2 small children, extra time is as rare to find around here as a clean shirt.  But every now & then, you luck up & find both.  So here we go, time to catch up.

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Labor Day weekend came & went.  Where were we, you ask?  The camper, no doubt.  The last hoo-rah of summer turned out to be a beautiful & hot.  Brandon was able to join us for most of the long weekend.  My sister & her little family also made the long journey down to join us as well.  It was very nice to have everyone together & see the kiddos play.  The days were spent with time at the playground, pool, & Dollywood, along with some delicious food to go along with it.  It may be only 2 or so hours away, but its so nice to get away & change it up a bit.

Not long ago, he was so small he'd fall out of this float.  Now he's filling it up quickly.


Thanks Brandon for the smile.  She'll go far in life with what you taught her. haha!

She was exhausted, but she loves watching videos on youtube.

Yes, I do have the cutest little nephew.



We love spending time with the Brown family.

haha!  I would love to know what's on these 2 girls' minds. :)

That's a bee full of cuteness.


I swear, I just love this kid.

Jonathan driving the cars for the first time.



Why yes, he does have me wrapped around his finger.  This picture is for all those people that said my baby was too small.  Look at those cheeks.

I was scared to death she was going to scream on this ride...

... and she absolutely LOVED it.

*****

Last week we started something new.. gymnastics!  Rainbow Gymnastics started a new class for 2 & 3 year olds, & its been GREAT.  Olivia loves doing these type of things, loves being around other kids, & she definitely loves rolling around on a big cushy mat. haha!  Its teaching her more than just gymnastics, its teaching her life lessons she needs to learn such as sharing, patience, and other virtues I wish I possessed more of.  After both classes, she's ran right up to me saying "That's fun" and "I *need* to go back."  *Need* has become her new catchphrase, one I doubt will leave anytime soon.  Like when she's 4 and *needs* that toy, or 10 and *needs* that new CD, and 16 and *needs* the car.  Oh my!  But anyway, gymnastics = two thumbs UP.  She loves telling me all about it & she definitely loves to show me. The teachers are amazing & very patient with 20+ two & three years olds.

My little gymnast.

She was SO excited.  See, she does know how to smile. haha!

Not even close to the whole group.  There's so many little ones.


Afterwards, when she ran up to me.
*****

That's all for now.
Its after midnight so Happy Friday, folks!

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Transformation

Lately I feel like I've changed - changed as a person.  Sadly, the excess baby weight I'm carrying on the outside hasn't changed, but I've changed on the inside.

My second pregnancy was hard on me.  I wasn't down a lot with morning sickness (thank goodness, had enough of that the first go around).  But I ached more than I have ever ached in my life.  I used to wonder if someone would run me over with a bus, would that feel better than what I was going through.  I used to have extreme back pain that I couldn't do anything but lay down & cry until it went away.  Now with all that, you add in a stressful pregnancy and a small toddler, and of course there were going to be some ups & downs.

So I slacked in the mommy department.  I put on that extra movie, I warmed up whatever was in the fridge to satisfy, I did whatever I could to get us through the day.  But I didn't go that extra mile.  I wasn't that mom I dreamed about, heard about, seen in the movies & on television.  Don't get me wrong, Olivia has never been deprived of her fair share of attention in all her life.  But we just didn't do all the extras because I was too tired or too achey.

And sadly this continued into our land of "newborn-ness."  We didn't do a lot of the extras because we were tired, run ragged by feedings, diapers, a two million doctor appointments. (what, not two million.. close enough).  Side note:  we did go on plenty of trips this summer with lots of family fun, so we did do some extras.  But that took away any extra energy we were storing up for hard times.

Recently, that has changed.  We do more than we ever have.  We read more books than ever, we talk, we sing, Olivia helps me cook when time/safety permits, we go to the park, we go for walks, we dance for no reason, we load up in our "momma-mobile" & we do whatever our little hearts desire.  Life is better, life is fun.  These are the memories I will hold on to, the messes, the unplanned trips to nowhere, the laughter & sweet i love you's.  Olivia is older & is able to have a little more freedom.  Jameson will be 5 months old soon and he's truly the best baby ever.  Never hardly cries, goes with the flow.  He's still a spitter more than you can even imagine, but it doesn't phase his attitude a bit.  That makes life better as well.

Our children are our world.  We base our whole minute, hour, day, year, lives around them.  I feel better now that my mommy-mode is back.  Am I that Mom I see on tv, heck no!  But I learn from each day, & I get better each day.

*****

Some random photos I found on my camera.

Out shopping!

Being goofy in the mirrors.

Not sure which one to pick

She liked the pink heads. haha!

Bubby being a good sport.


Pushing Daisy in the stroller.

Of course Daisy had to ride every ride possible, too.  Sheesh, how did we find time for shopping.



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all ready for Wednesday night church service



Ready for church, waiting on Mom.

Park time.







Showing off her make-up!  Thanks Mamaw for buying her real makeup. {BBM Hand over Face}.

This is REAL paint, REAL paint on her, my carpet, furniture, EVERYTHING.  She found it & entertained herself after nap time instead of coming to wake me up.  Thankfully, most of the damage is gone.  Only one spot remains & we'll chalk that to visual memories.

*****

If you all haven't checked out Brittany's blog: The Story of our Rookie Years - you need to go like.. NOW.  Recipes, helpful household advice, plenty of humor.. one of my favs!  Anyway, I've tried a few recipes she's posted (she finds them, I try them. haha! Call me lazy), but this idea is my new fav.



Its a bowl made of cookie dough with ice cream inside (I put cookies & cream, talk about cookie-overload-fly me straight to heaven).  Mine doesn't look nearly as pretty (nothing I make ever does :( ), but it tastes YUMMY.  Its one of those "super easy, why didn't I think of that, but I'm so glad she did" kind of recipes.  Check out her post here.  Brittany - All of my dear family's stomachs thanks you for all your hard work.  :)

*****

Well, I'm catchin' up fast!
I'm done for the night!  Maybe tomorrow!
Goodnight, peeps! (What, they don't say peeps anymore.. WHAT-EV!)

Soccor Mom Status: Complete

Well, we did it.  I finally convinced Brandon we're a "mini-van type of family."  So after looking online for a few weeks, two Saturdays ago, we set out on the hunt.

Now there was nothing wrong with the Trailblazer, I loved it very much.  But this mom needed a less gas-guzzler & more space.  There's a lot of people out in the world that would say "ewww, I would never drive one of those."  Well good for you, that left more options out there for us.  I've always been the girl to dream of being a stay-at-home mom with a hardworking husband, quiet well-behaved kids, and a mini-van to go to & from every kind of activity & school event imaginable.  Well, now the dream is almost complete (darn, where are those well-behaved kiddos I've been looking for. haha!)  Maybe I didn't dream BIG, but at least I can say my dreams have came true.

So anyway, back to the van.  That Saturday we set out early to see what was out in the world.  Brandon has so many specifications before he'd ever walk off the lot with anything.  He's ALMOST impossible, but that's what's good about him, I guess.  I'd buy the first thing the salesman showed if it was me.  I do NOT deal well with large purchases.  We went to Bristol - Nada!  We went to Johnson City - Even Less!  We went to Kingsport - No such luck!  I was pretty discouraged & ready to pack it up.  After 5 car lots, we decided it just wasn't the time for us.

We stopped by McDonald's in Kingsport to get some lunch & let the kids stretch out since they had done so well.  Olivia made friends at the playground area in McDonald's & we were just enjoying watching her play.  We got back in the car for the drive home, and less than half a mile from McDonald's, I spotted one at a car lot we didn't even think about checking at (Granted, it was the only mini-van on the huge lot and I would spot it going 65 mph past).  We decided to give it one more go, make a u-ey, & check it out.  There it was.  *IT* was made for us.  It met Brandon's unrealistic expectations of price, mileage, year, etc.  It exceeded my expectations of dvd player, leather seats, seat warmers, automatic door openers, etc. etc. etc.  L-O-V-E, LOVE it!  Bonus points, we went to college with the salesman & he treated us right.  So that afternoon, we left the lot in our "new" (new to us, its used) Honda Odyssey.



We have found one pitfall since bringing home our new vehicle.  Since we have the extra row of seats, Olivia thinks all of her stuffed animals & babies need to come along for the ride.  And Heaven forbid we leave without buckling each & every one of them in. 

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We've been super busy & on the go a lot the last couple of weeks.  I'm trying to catch up, so more blogging in the near future.

Happy almost Friday, folks!!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Turn Page: New Chapter

Yesterday marked something new for us.  Livi started "school."  Well, actually its just Toddler Time at the Library, but she feels like such a BIG kid calling it school, so we go along with it.
This is new for us because other than church, its our first place actually getting ready and getting out.  Brandon scheduled his lunch so he was able to go with us the first day (since I was unsure how it was going to go, and you throw in Jameson and a Mom only has so many hands).  But it went GREAT.  She had the best time and has talked about going back ever since.

This is just what we were needing in our lives - something to look forward to, something to get us out of our pajamas.  Sometimes I get very overwhelmed staying at home all the time.  I went from college where I juggled 18 hours of classes, work as a secretary, President of sorority, captain of cheerleading, planning a wedding, marrying and playing wife (aka taking care of my hubby) TO staying at home with 2 small children all day long, every day.  And while this job is very fulfilling, important, and something that I LOVE, it can be very repetitive and mundane when I was used to a life on the go.

And for Olivia, she loves to be around other kids.  She lights up like you wouldn't believe and loves to make a friend anywhere she can.  I'm so blessed to be able to stay at home with her, but sometimes I wonder if she wouldn't rather be in daycare.  She just loves stuff like that so much.

So here it begins - a new chapter in our lives.  A real sign that in fact, our little babies are growing up.
She was so excited!!!
Her being silly face.